How to be a rockstar

I thought about writing something really cool and vague but deep on the topic of how to be something, which would totally tell how to do something, kind of, but would also give you a window into my life, through ridiculous intelligent and clever sentences. Alas, I have to know something before I can tell anyone how to do something... You know? I have a friend who has a blog, and I didn't know, and I found it and read it, and he is intelligent and clever. I like those words. It reinspired me to be both of them. Not that I lost inspiration. Just, sometimes, I forget.

I like adventures. I think my clever, intelligent friend should come have adventures with me. Right now, my adventures are somewhat limited. I blame Jed. I blame Jed for everything, and it just isn't right to do that. I blame work. I get up early and do my stuff, and then after I don't want to do anything. As long as I don't stop, I'm okay. I'm starting to think that maybe I'm not destined to be a log planer. Not that destiny has anything to do with it. They don't really have work for me right now, so every day I work could be my last. Really messes with your motivation.

Perspective is everything though. Everything is perspective? It's easy to look at life and feel like you couldn't do it. Like you can't do it. And then you lose, game over, and take your ball and run home, but running fixes nothing, because you still only see what you want to see. Or you can fight it. Life gives you lemons. That cliche.

I don't actually know. I know perspective plays a big part in life. I know living defeated sucks.

I like adventures. When I drive at night, and no one is on the road, I think I could drive anywhere. Just drive all night. I could be in a different world by morning. I could go see anyone I wanted. I could go anywhere. I can go anywhere. Do anything. I think sometimes people get stuck, and so they dream, but they don't reach their dreams because they seem unattainable, because the dreams are future, and the people are stuck. But they aren't actually stuck.

I like the idea of setting dates. Let's get married this day. We might go crazy making it happen, but it will happen. Let's go visit that guy who left us. It's nice talk, but things don't seem to happen, in my experience, without something making it happen. Things don't happen by themselves. People don't change because they want to. They change because they have to. If they don't have to, they won't change. Want to change? Put yourself in a place where, unless you start changing now, you won't be able to handle what's coming. This is garbage. I agree with what I'm saying. But presented like this, it's garbage. I should delete it. I won't though.

I should click that monetize button. One day.

We wanted to do a worship night where we brought youth groups from around the area together. So, we puttered around for a while, and finally we set a date. And did nothing. But, as the date is coming closer, we realize we have to do something. We put things in motion that, well, they can be stopped, but that will be embarrassing.... And so we make stuff happen. Find a speaker. Youth groups. Find a band. Or maybe step up and BE a band. I don't know how that story ends yet. You can pray for it though. It's God's anyway. Right?

Maybe I should be doing something else right now.

haha i love this drawing. its amazing.

DANIEL!!!

OMG!!! prom is so close i finally got someone to go with. i am going with my boyfriend his name is Daniel. well he goes to highland. He i guess does not like to wear Tux's,but i told him he is going to wear one for me and he said he will for me. he asked me what is one thing that i would want to do the most and i said got bungy jumping. He said if we ever get married that we are going to try to do that and i said aww thz hun.i knew Daniel for awhile now before we went out and i have more feelings for him then i ever did with any other guy i went out with. Daniel made me go to church with him one day i don't like going to church cuz i think of my grandpa whenever i go, and i told him that. So i went and he held my hand the whole time i felt safe with him there by my side.After church he took me to Perkins and we had breakfast i don't know how he knew but he told the waiter what i wanted with out me saying anything. It was like he knew what i like and i really liked that. He told me that i brought love back into his life and i was happy that i found a guy like Daniel and i will hold onto him forever.

PROM!!!

Wow every girl runs to the stores to get a prom dress. i shouldn't be talking because that sounds just like me. my dress is blue and baby blue with silver sparkle. I just need to get high heels and i am already to go to prom now if my boyfriend can make up his mind if he wants to go to prom or not. I wish he would choose already but wait guys can't commit to anything these days.I'm ready to just ask some strange to prom just to see what he would do or say about it. Prom is on May 20th and i need to know.

I LOVE YOU

The three words we always want to hear but sometimes we hear then and sometimes we don't..How do we know if the three words that we want to hear are true or not.Do they kiss you on the check and tell you that you are their world..Do they protect you from danger that comes and go's in your life. Show them that you care and you are always there when they are sad. Do you fight a minute and get back together right after. Because if you do all these things that's the true meaning of Love. I LOVE YOU MATT GRINNELL!!

DRAMA

so in every school there is drama. if you want to stay out of drama as best as you can all you have to do is STAY AWAY FROM THE DRAMA MAMAS!!! but that is hard to do if you are always sucked in the drama like i am. I hate drama, i am always trying to settle other people's drama but some how i am the bad person so they start drama with m. that's why i am stay out of everything that has to do with the "DRAMA MAMA"S" . It sucks because some of my friends are in middle school and the like to start drama. so take my advice and STAY OUT OF THE DRAMA AS YOU CAN. if you don't your just going to be stuck in the drama for a long time and its annoying.

BOYS!!!

What every girl likes and sometimes dreams about. I know i do *wink wink *. But you can't be to careful what boys are thinking. I went out with a guy for a year and a half. A month after i broke up with him i found out he cheated on me with my best friend that i knew since i was 9 years old. Sometimes you can't trust people you love the most, I Learned my lesson. Be careful who you trust in your life, Because girls you could get hurt in the end. I know i did.